August Lane

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“What do you think I regret, Luke?” He’d turned it over in his mind so many times, rewound every choice that led to this: lost moments, misspoken words, every chance he had to love her the way she deserved, but saved himself instead. He gathered it all in his mind, held it there, and said, “You never should have met me.” She smiled the worst smile he’d ever seen. Like a gaping wound. “You’re wrong. I never should have lost you.” Luke was too stunned to respond. She used his paralysis as an opportunity to gather her things. There was so much to say. But none of it mattered. “You didn’t” was all he could manage as she slipped out the door.

After I finished reading this, all I could think/feel was Oooof. Get your book clubs to read August Lane because you're going to want to talk about the million and one things in this and not have to condense it down into a short enough review people will read and be tortured like me. Constructed like a song, the story of August Lane starts off with a podcast interview being given by her famous first crowned Black Miss Arkansas Delta Teen mom who had to relinquish the crown after it was found out she had a one year old daughter and then turned country music star. I, obviously, want Jojo Lane's own book but you'll get a good amount of her story in this one, because it gives context to August's character. While we have Jojo's perspective and storytelling in current 2024, the story also goes back and forth into 2023 with August and Luke reunited and 2009, when they first met in high school.

Even now, thirteen years after “Another Love Song” hit the top of the country charts, Luke couldn’t play the first chords without fumbling.

In 2023 Luke is a down and out former country star who got his big break from a reality tv competition show. He's broke, from signing bad contracts, and been on a long separation from his pop sensation wife, who is bisexual and in a relationship with a woman, so careers and media frenzies keep them from going through with divorce. He's doing the bar circuit and singing his one hit song, that destroys him every time because while he wrote the music, he didn't write the lyrics to it and he knows it's stolen. It's when Jojo Lane's manager comes up to him and asks him to sing a duet to that song with her at her country music hall of fame induction, taking place in his hometown, that he may finally get to apologize and try to make things right with August.

He played the music again and sang the revised chorus, changing the tempo to make it more vulnerable, the way she wanted. August sang along and Luke let his voice fade. He watched her while he played, too caught up in the melody to notice he was tumbling into something vast and endless.

The first twenty-five percent or so of this felt like set-up but it's also context, you're going to get an amazing understanding/look into these characters and secondary characters in their lives. August still lives in the hometown her grandmother raised her in, later she was her grandma's caretaker and just lost her three months ago. She has that vulnerability of not feeling like her mother wanted her and the confinement of not being able to break out of how a small town can keep you tied down to any reputation you gained as a kid, undeserved or deserved. The 2009 flashbacks not only show us how August and Luke met but the instances in their lives that made them the adults they are today, August's self-worth from family issues and betrayal from Luke and Luke's inherited self-medicating with alcohol from his mother, who suffered from undiagnosed fibromyalgia. Luke's been sober five years but, obviously, still battles with it as his emotional trauma from his childhood is unresolved.

One strap of her sundress had collapsed, and he leaned over, kissed her bare shoulder, her collarbone, the swell of her breast.

I went into this with my romance reader cap on, and while this was one of the fullest stories I've ever read, the romance didn't feel quite the star of the show that I like in romance genre. It takes a while to really get there but it's because of all the context to understand these two characters, so wear your romance caps but maybe pair them with your contemporary fiction/book club fiction hats too. So while we have August justifiably angry at Luke, Luke feeling incredibly guilty for feeling like he stole August's song, there's also that delicious tension drawing them together, the 2023 parts draw on all this and end up providing a heat inducing open door scene. You'll feel it between these two because the emotional groundwork and development between these two was solidly constructed up to this scene; they have intimacy!

“For people to love me, I mean. I can be a lot.” “You’re the easiest person to love I’ve ever met.” The words slid so quickly from his mouth that it was like he’d been possessed. No halting half sentences. No long stretches of gathering his thoughts. He nodded at her journal. “It’s right there on paper. You see the world in colors I never knew existed. The rain plays you symphonies. You are so special, August Lane, and I can’t imagine anyone not seeing it.”

I did think the way Luke provided the way to their happily ever after felt a little, he just went and did it, rushed but him doing it probably out weighed the rushed feeling. If you've been looking for an Ooof story, this is it. These characters felt real as they battled, endured, thrived, lost, and loved through physical and sexual assault, racism, colorism, sexism, substance abuse, betrayal, small-town b.s., abortion, cost of fame, and all the little moments that build to make a person and a life. Along with some country music history and shout-outs (DeFord Bailey), the secondary characters were incredibly rich, Luke's brother Ethan and mom Ava, Jojo's manager, the town sheriff, Jojo who I mentioned wanting her own book with this insight about herself: It was the press about me being a good mother. I’m not. I never was. That was forced on me, by Theo and Birdie. August knew that, which made it hard to get close to her. I could never relax with that girl because she was always working so hard to prove she wasn’t a mistake. But all she did was drag me back to that time where I had no control over my life. and also Mavis, August's cousin, I NEED her to get her own HEA. Mavis had this insight about Jojo: “I think she survived terrible things and did the best she could.” She paused. “I also think people can only give what they have. Some of us don’t have much.” and this insight about herself: It’d be easier for him to love me if I loved myself.”. So yeah, read this if you want those ooof feelings and get your friends/book clubs to read it with you because this was rich with elements you're going to want to talk about.